I was not in the game of course, because when I came I found nobody, twice, just like you, that pissed me off and that's why I given up.
Your behavior was bad, that's a fact. But I recognize you haven't been helped much, Destroyer (and a few other trashers) should have been banned for what they've done. But they haven't and that's because none of the admins here wanted to hold their balls after everyone here thought it'd be cool to let everyone freely trashtalk as they want (supposedly to protect the activity and because it didn't make sense to ban someone anymore)
Do you see now why I say drama is toxic for the community's activity? You were the main victim of it. Don't throw all the blame on myself, please.